I was faced with a difficult decision tonight, today was my second class, and it went pretty smoothly considering it was related to my passion: Photography. (Which I still don’t believe I’m good at even though people tell me otherwise)

Tonight when I got home I realized that one of the eBooks I had purchased for my C.I.S. class actually did not come included with an access code for online work that is related to my course. Naturally, I started freaking out thinking FUCK, there goes $60 down the drain. Luckily provides full refunds of rented eBooks 7 days from the purchase date, but I had a hell of a hard time trying to return that damned book, for one, amazon says its refundable, yet when I go to manage my digital orders, there is no sign of a “refund/return.” So being the little researcher I am, I googled, searched their forum’s and sure enough, other people had the same problems, so I went through a hell of a lot to just return the damn thing, by chatting online with a representative. Anyways she was very helpful, but Amazon, come on, its almost like you want us to get stuck with eBooks and make a profit off of unsuspecting computer illiterate victims.

So after that and having come to the realization that “Access Codes” as referred to by these institutions we pay money to, so that they can teach us how to do things we can easily learn on YouTube or on any other part of the internet FOR FREE, JUST SO WE CAN GET A PIECE OF PAPER OR CERTIFICATE THAT QUALIFIES US TO BE SOMEBODY WITHIN SOCIETY, are only accessible from new unused books with unused access codes….

…thaaaaats when the stress started really kicking me in the nads. I’d be spending nearly $500 in total on all three classes, just for books, FOR BOOKS. That’s not including transportation costs, an extra materials the class might require surprisingly. It was all just starting to really get to me for a quick 10 minutes that seemed like an eternity. The anxiety started building up. Thankfully I have two very important women in my life who know how to talk to me and put my mind at ease, sometimes. This writing also helps, so I was really having doubts, maybe I should hold off for a semester, maybe its not the best time, but dammit, it hasn’t been the best time since 2014 when i graduated high school and dropped out my second year of college, so when the hell is it ever going to be a good time. I’ve always been so good at giving excuses to people, giving them a view at my completely absurd reasoning behind my dropouts from college. I now only came to the conclusion that maybe, just maybe those excuses weren’t really for anybody,

but myself…

Funny thing is, even though my mind was having its brief moment of doubt, the passion in my heart had already bought my parking permit for the semester about an hour before…

So there’s no way I’m getting in the way of what the heart wants. Only a fool would go against his gut feeling and ambition to further progress himself with knowledge and prestige in life.



First day of Classes / Nostalgic Night

So, here I am, 1:11 in the morning typing this out, trying to piece my future together in my thoughts. Yesterday, was the first day of my spring semester classes. Well I only had one class which had to do with computers. Boring, I know. Nerdy too, but since I came out of the womb I have always just been so better attuned with technology than most. It just clicks with me. I can easily find my way around a computer and when I can’t I google it, or YouTube it, simple as that. That’s something that has always astonished me, the simple fact that when people get stuck, and don’t know what to do, whether its computers, puzzles, video games, car problems, cooking, LITERALLY anything, and they don’t have enough common sense to just GOOGLE it. We have this abundant amount of information at our fingertips, yet we clearly don’t know how to take advantage of it. There are millions of people who have had, or are having the same problem as you, all it takes is a quick search and you’ve found yourself several possible solutions.

But I digress, my first day of CIS (computer information systems) was a pretty okay experience, I can already tell, I’m going to be doing a lot of reviewing of what I already have a general grasp of knowledge on.

Hurrah for prerequisites that completely screw with your advancement in classes! Am I right?

Anyways, coming home, I decided to go through some old files, I have saved in an external hard drive. Videos of family about a year ago, damn how shit changes. People grow, grow apart, or just get busy. I love every one of them, and I only hope to see all of my families dreams become a reality, and for them to know true happiness. I looked at the video I took while I was in San Francisco for my 20th birthday. That weekend was the happiest I had ever been in my entire life. Being away, in an unknown city, with the closest people I’ve grown with, and my current girlfriend, there’s something about being so far away from home, and the daily stresses you face, it’s….well its so liberating you almost wish you’d never have to come back to your daily routines. One of my biggest goals is to travel.

So that’s what I plan to do. Travel.

Welcome to my life!

Hello everyone! As you can tell, I’ve decided to create my own website, full of my photography work, writings, rants, and pretty much anything you could possibly think of.

I do not know how often I will be posting on here, as I can’t really find the time for anything these days, with school, work, and moving homes all happening within a small amount of time, the stress can really build up. Continue reading “Welcome to my life!”